07.03.2026

I've been heavily struggling getting a job... just stuck in my house for like 5 months now, it fucking sucks so much
I've started applying for every job I can at this point, and in the meantime, this site and similar artistic projects are the only things that are bringing me joy...

02.03.2026

I'm archiving my brain on the web, on my site.
Stay Tuned.

25.02.2026

A lot has been happening recently... it's been really hard dealing with unemployment but hopefully I'll fix that soon...
I've also decided I'm gonna apply for Bachelor's, prob in the UK but we'll see what happens.
I'm gonna get out of here no matter what, and hopefully it will be in the coming year...
Wish me luck ,_,

12.02.2026

The trip was better than i couldve imagined, it wasn't perfect but it was still absolutely heavingly.
Ive met my fav artists, saw some really inspiring art, and bought a bunch of shit lol
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I've also met this rly gorgeous girl and i think i fell really hard for her,,,,
if we lived in the same country i wouldve already asked her out, but thats not the case...

I do hope we'll keep in contact until I'll be able to do so.
because god, ive been dreaming about her every day, and i dont want to stop,,,

29.12.2025

I've been doing pretty bad mentally... I'm developing a better mindset about what I do with my time, trying to use my phone less and such.
I'm flying to the UK on the 21st, I'm going to see Bye2 and Psychoangel at Glasgow ! Really excited, and also really scared ^^"
I also booked to see Machinegirl and Goreshit on the 27th :D
Hope I'll have fun.. I don't have many days that I can say are happy, I really hope some change will come soon.

20.12.2025

wanna get fucked while having NL playing in the background
but like,,,
for that to authentically happen,,,
not like
on purpose,,,

18.12.2025

My biggest dream has always been to dissapear - Pack up everything and leave. No letters. No trace.
Problem is, I don't think I'll ever lack the empathy and love to the people around me, to the degree where I'll hurt them this badly. I can barely convince myself to put in the effort need to leave in the nice, normal way. But god, what wouldn't I give to be able to start over from scratch.

17.12.2025

im such a fucking failure dude wtf is wrong with meeee
Why do I ALWAYS have to eake ip so late AAAAAAA

14.12.2025

Every so often it gets harder to believe I'm really alive.
It starts to feel that the only way I can really know.
Is by seeing the blood run with my own eyes.

At some point you've got to wonder:
"Am I going to feel like this forever?"